Molly had me up at 4.45am this morning, had less than half a bottle, a good fart and went back to sleep. Leaving me wide awake – Thanks kid! The birthday messages had started rolling in late last night as I’ve friends in New Zealand and Australia!
My 27th year of life has officially begun.
Molly waking up early gave me the chance to think about my 26th year and how fast it flew by. As I get older, the years move along quicker and quicker. Why is that? We don’t necessarily get busier. Well, I guess I have this last year due to having a baby, but the other years? My guess is we don’t stop to enjoy the moment we’re in enough, or fully appreciate what we have, so life just speeds on by and another year we grow older. Year 26 found my Facebook feed clutter with, engagement announcements and “We’re Homeowners!” party invites and Wedding invites and new job congratulations. With every page refresh, slowly but surely my brain started melting into one giant pile of anxious ageism. The waves of comparison, jealousy, impatience, guilt, and confusion hit fast and hard in year 26 and I became my own worst critic. The pressure of comparing where I was at 26 and where everyone else my age was in their own lives started weighing heavy on my heart. Despite being in the most loving and stable relationship I have ever been in, as well as pregnant with our first child. For some unknown reason, I was still stuck comparing my life and achievements to other peoples. I decided after months of torturing myself that enough was enough. I’d resolved to stop letting my age and the preconceived milestones that go along with it, define me.
This day of birth has already shaped up to be quite lovely ( despite the ever so slightly early wake up call from Bug ). Liam had to leave for work at 5am this morning. Our paths briefly crossed as I made a bottle for Molly and he left for work. He had set up cards and gifts in the kitchen for me to wake up to and we are going out for dinner tonight as well as Brighton on Saturday. I opened the cards from him and Molly ( and one from my Nan ) Guys, I don’t know what I did to deserve such a fella, but my heart is practically bursting with love for him this morning. Feeling so unbelievably loved.
I’m hopeful that as I continue to grow older, age will continue to be just a number instead of a reminder of choices made and life gone by. Cheers to living for today…no regrets, no comparisons.
A few highlights of my 26th year of life
Spending my 26th Birthday in Disneyland Paris with my friend and her little girl.
Going to Newcastle to visit family.
The birth of our little girl on Christmas day!
Friends visiting from New Zealand, Australia and Scotland!
Watching my Mother marry her best friend.
Liam and I celebrating our 3rd Anniversary.
Starting the long ass road to buying a house!
Going on many family adventures as well as planning many more!
Cheers to another year!
Every year on your birthday, you get the chance to start new. -Sammy Hagar
Hope you had a wonderful birthday! Also your mum really looks like you!
Much love, Caitylis x x
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Thank you hun, I had a lovely day! Haha a lot of people say I look like my mum 🙂 xx